Solo

So I ask Michelle "Can you help me with my University solo, please?" as she is my teacher, she replies "Yes I can, just come up with a concept and we'll develop it from that!", I'm like "Ok I know we're contemporary dancers and all but are you for real?" Course what I actually said was "Yeah k thats awesome!" bah I'm an idiot...

WAIT! No I'm not! After weeks of having that nagging voice in the back of my head saying
"Uh dumb ass, you need a concept you know!" to which I reply;
"Pffft I have one!"
"Oh yeah, what?"
"Uh I have my ideas..."
"No you don't!"
"How do you know?"
"Because I'm you, you tool!"
"Yeah, well, I, you, suck it bitch!" ... *out loud* "Awe shit!"

But apart from my inner monologue being a demented and abusive pair and me needing to be locked away I have it! My solo concept! Abandonment and the need to stand on your own two feet! I want something emotional so I'll work harder on it. I'm doing it to My Immortal by Evanescence (I know how emo right?). This routine will either be epic or a big pile opf "seriously even make me look at that and I WILL kick you so hard in the nuts you'll have tree tonsils..." and I'm hoping not the latter! I WANT THOSE JUDGES TO CRY LIKE BABIES! I really need this!

Choreographing Scene 5a

As we all know, I am not a ballroom dancer. I have never trained in ballroom, except for two or three Latin classes when I was a preteen. However, the courses only ballroom dancer has disappeared, and as I said before the choreography for the dancing scene in the Christmas play came into my command. The script hints towards a foxtrot.Foxtrot. Ok, it is not my genre, I never trained, but the minute they gave me this post, I knew what to do, and I did it, a very simplified version of it. As simple as it was my dancers, who are actually actors, could not get it, they could not get "slow, slow, quick, quick, slow" my interpretation "Step, cross, step and turn, line drop step". A child could do that! Then we went on to other pieces, so I decided I‘d go even easier. I gave them jazz squares, sixteen bloody counts of jazz squares, and it would look great! It would look great, if they could do it. Moreover, if they could dance in sync with a little coordination! No, they each randomly stumble and flail as if they were flounders lined up on a ship deck!

Tuesday: Today rehearsals went great! None of the losers who gave me trouble showed up so I was happy. Some parts were changed, not majorly, and I improved what they were doing wrong. Everything went great and I was very happy.

Wednesday: Lord help me please. Back stage I tried to run through the dance but the costume mistress was more concerned about getting they're mustashes on rather than them learnin the dance so I had to give in, 3 of the six dancers on the stage didn't know the rutine. When about to correct what they did wrong the director (My tutor) spoke at the same time, I didn't notice but that didn't stop her from shouting at me. I stopped talking and she went on to explain so then when she finished I went on to explain what happened but one of the dancers who never attened any of my rehersals started to back talk to me and the director yelled "shut up". SO I turned around and said "don't speak to me like that", she said sorry but one of the actors said "She is the teacher she can speak to you how she likes" (I hate country people. So I left the rehearsal then and there, I sent a text message to my director saying sorry and that I am sick of having to work with such disrespectful students. She replied asking me to come in at 3:00 for a meeting. So I did and we had a quick chat, and sorted things out, afterwards my dance partner approached me and said "You should not have been such a brat, and your fucking up the dance" I replied saying "right so you can be the choreogrpher then, I'll quit" she replied something like "No, I..." but I walked away and went up to resign. The director asked me not to resign and to choreograph the rehearsals on thursday. I am wary and don't have the energy to work with these people but I have to.

Thursday: Only one dancer shows up. I am alienated from the others in my course and I can't wait for university next year.

PS. Sorry this is late.
Love S

Hip-Hop

So I have started Hip-Hop classes and I can I just say "fudge it. As a contemporary dancer I am finding hip-hop alien and weird, I'm OK at it but still getting kind of frustrated. My hip-hop classes run from 7pm to 8pm on a Tuesday, my biggest dance day as I have morning dance class is college from 9am to 11am and night contemporary from 8:30pm to 9:30pm. In my hip-hop class there is this one guy, no I'm not crushing, who is very good, well great and he knows it. He is so cocky that it pisses me off, I can't believe it, anyway I caught him looking at me in the mirror during a run through and snickering at my incompetence at his style, I wasn't that bad I was just a bit slow on technique. I grimaced at him and he seemed to noticed that I wasn't pleased. I had half a mind to go up to him and say "why don't you try my style for a day see how you cope" but I didn't. I could tell that he couldn't, he was very skinny with no upper body strength, so he certainly couldn't lift a partner in any classical based style. I was very offended but I kept up with the choreography and got it by the end of the hour, I was very pleased but felt bitter after the class, there must have been almost 20 students in that class, none of them did anything else but hip-hop and all of them had the same rudeness about them. So I left the class to go down two storeys and wait for my contemporary thinking "what a jerk that guy is" as I felt so insulted but then when the other contemporary dancers arrived I felt better because we all started chatting and having fun.

I want to know what is the matter with street style dancers. Hip-Hop dancers, Krump dancers and so on are all so rude to non street dancers, its so annoying because we should all be looking out for other dancers. I never look down my nose at a B-Boy because they can't do contemporary but I may as well because they seem to do it to me when I'm just trying to learn they're style!